Unfortunate

So....

Somebody ran into my car today. Almost no cars in the parking lot and for some reason mine got backed into- I know, how ridiculous. 

But do you know what's ridiculously sweet? I responded completely differently than I thought I would. My friend once said, "Everything is overwhelming and scary until it actually happens to you. Once it happens, you just deal with it." 

Random, but I think I'm finding it to be true. El took such good care of me, even though the event itself was somewhat unfortunate. My car is still drivable, my dad still lives in the same town as me so he was able to come help me, the "runner-into" was extremely kind and considerate. And eventually I'll have a beautiful new door to replace one that was slightly dented beforehand. 

And guess what? It's just a thing. That's one of the first "things" El told me. I'm not defined by what I'm wearing or what I'm driving. I'm defined by His love; that's it. One of my profs once talked about how we could walk through the streets in a potato sack and still be worth as much as we were sitting in that room, dolled up and engaging in intellectual conversations. And now I have a chance to put it into practice. 

Cool, yep. Fun, nope. 


Oh well...and random side note, I am falling in love with "Foster the People" this week...so awesome. You should listen to them.


-ash

Friday

Dear Friend,

So today I have the day off...no plans, no real commitments, nothing. I forgot what that was like. I have been so busy these days, constantly running from one thing to the other. I don't really remember the last time I actually flat out rested. And do you know what happened when I finally got to the point where I could stop? I freaked out; I got ridiculously overwhelmed with the thought that I had nothing to do.

What happened to me? 

Wasn't it just last summer when I was preaching to everyone, trying to get them to see the need to just be-to stop doing and be? How did I get to this place where I'm scared of having nothing on my agenda? Well, the two jobs and scads of commitments probably help a bit :)....

But in all seriousness, where did this attitude come from? 

And El being just as awesome as He always His, whispered into my fragile state of mind, "Come away with Me." So I went outside, sat in the sunshine and remembered. Remembered the joy of enjoying my days and forgetting the preciousness of time. Breathe in the air, look at the grass, watch the insects, notice life-forget the hour and enjoy the life I've been given.


Yes, I think I have (for the most part) been making the best out of a hectic schedule, but I think it's time to opt out of the hectic schedule. This is what my life was made for - to enjoy and be enjoyed - not to rush around trying to make it through. 


I feel like I'm still thinking...wait a second, you're reading the thoughts of someone who thinks too much ('The Surface' This Beautiful Republic). Maybe, it's time to just stop.


-ash