Friday

Dear Friend,

So today I have the day off...no plans, no real commitments, nothing. I forgot what that was like. I have been so busy these days, constantly running from one thing to the other. I don't really remember the last time I actually flat out rested. And do you know what happened when I finally got to the point where I could stop? I freaked out; I got ridiculously overwhelmed with the thought that I had nothing to do.

What happened to me? 

Wasn't it just last summer when I was preaching to everyone, trying to get them to see the need to just be-to stop doing and be? How did I get to this place where I'm scared of having nothing on my agenda? Well, the two jobs and scads of commitments probably help a bit :)....

But in all seriousness, where did this attitude come from? 

And El being just as awesome as He always His, whispered into my fragile state of mind, "Come away with Me." So I went outside, sat in the sunshine and remembered. Remembered the joy of enjoying my days and forgetting the preciousness of time. Breathe in the air, look at the grass, watch the insects, notice life-forget the hour and enjoy the life I've been given.


Yes, I think I have (for the most part) been making the best out of a hectic schedule, but I think it's time to opt out of the hectic schedule. This is what my life was made for - to enjoy and be enjoyed - not to rush around trying to make it through. 


I feel like I'm still thinking...wait a second, you're reading the thoughts of someone who thinks too much ('The Surface' This Beautiful Republic). Maybe, it's time to just stop.


-ash